{"id":1278,"date":"2023-07-31T06:00:22","date_gmt":"2023-07-31T06:00:22","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/nadiamakessomeart.nl\/?p=1278"},"modified":"2023-08-27T16:05:34","modified_gmt":"2023-08-27T16:05:34","slug":"would-20-year-old-me-be-proud-of-me-now","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/nadiamakessomeart.nl\/index.php\/2023\/07\/31\/would-20-year-old-me-be-proud-of-me-now\/","title":{"rendered":"Would 20-year-old me be proud of me now?"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-embed is-type-video is-provider-youtube wp-block-embed-youtube wp-embed-aspect-16-9 wp-has-aspect-ratio\"><div class=\"wp-block-embed__wrapper\">\n<iframe loading=\"lazy\" title=\"Small story \/ poem I wrote and my art \u2764\ufe0f decided to share! #youcreate #procreate\" width=\"740\" height=\"416\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/5d2oJI4nf6s?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe>\n<\/div><figcaption>listen to my short story here \u2764\ufe0f<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">People often say:  &#8220;Twenty year old me would be so proud of 30-year old me.&#8221; But really, would it be?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Would twenty year old me genuinely proud of me now? <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I mean I am not a millionaire &#8211; duh.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I do not have 4 kids. 4 kids? at 30? really?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I am not that certain weight that 20 year old me wanted me to be &#8211; which  now I know I physically can achieve only if I cut off my leg. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I don&#8217;t live in New York.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">and, alas,  I never made it to 30 under 30. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">But I lived. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I lost myself, and then I found myself again. I let others decide, and slowly learned how to make my own choices.  I forgot the dreams I had, and let the noises, the hustle, the social media silence them.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"> I found my dreams.  I threw some dreams away, because they no longer served me. I kept dreams that mattered, and created new ones. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">20 year old me, looking at me, for sure would judge. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">But I learned not to care about judgement of others. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">20 year old me, I&#8217;m sorry. But I guess&#8230; I guess I am fine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u2014<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><em>by Nadia P., July 2023<\/em>    <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>A small poem, reflection <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":1395,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_hide_featured_image":false,"_jetpack_featured_image_duplicate_dismissed":0,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[17,34],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1278","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-art","category-writing"],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/nadiamakessomeart.nl\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/07\/Black-White-Simple-Blank-Paper-Blog-Banner-1.png?fit=2240%2C1260&ssl=1","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/nadiamakessomeart.nl\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1278","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/nadiamakessomeart.nl\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/nadiamakessomeart.nl\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nadiamakessomeart.nl\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nadiamakessomeart.nl\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1278"}],"version-history":[{"count":6,"href":"https:\/\/nadiamakessomeart.nl\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1278\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1396,"href":"https:\/\/nadiamakessomeart.nl\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1278\/revisions\/1396"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nadiamakessomeart.nl\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/1395"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/nadiamakessomeart.nl\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1278"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nadiamakessomeart.nl\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1278"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nadiamakessomeart.nl\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1278"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}